Another Question

I find myself asking yet another question that seems to have no answer.  No matter what I have done the day prior or how much sleep I am blessed to get, I constantly feel tired, exhausted, or drained upon waking.  I guess the most confusion comes to me as I am not sure what I am doing (or not doing) that is causing this tiresome feeling I am getting.  I have even prayed about this and continuously question whether or not I am somehow being punished for something I have done or some sin that I have committed.  This baffles me, though, as I know God EXPECTS for us to sin on a daily basis and He has already died for each and every one of our sins so we could be saved.  I am certain, just as most of the other questions that resound in my mind from day to day, this question does not have a simple answer, and may have more than one solution.  May God give me the patience and peaceful rest in the nights to follow that I may wake refreshed and prepared to fulfill the plan that God has for me.

The Plan

As I continue on my path of life, I have to continuously remind myself of the fact that God has a plan for me and that it is in a constant state of revealing itself to me.  I read in the Bible at one time that God wants for us to be fruitful and multiply.  I'm pretty sure it doesn't say anywhere in the Bible, "We are to be fruitful and multiply.....except for Emily Rose Weiss."  So why is it that in attempting to fulfill this plan that God has for each and every one of us that I seem completely unable and incapable?  It is a question that I will continue to ask myself until given this answer that seems so simple to me, and yet I know the answer is far more complex than just a "yes" or a "no."  Unfortunately those things that we want the most sometimes take a while to receive, and it is not as simple as the idea of "ask and it shall be given, seek and you shall find, knock and it will be opened unto you."  I continue to travel back and forth between the idea of why those around me are continually blessed with this gift, and I have yet to receive the gift God has bestowed upon others.  Just another reminder to me to trust in the ultimate plan God has for every one of us from day to day.

School and the Path of Life

It seems forever since the last time I posted....probably because it was.  Recently I found out I would be attending Traffic Accident Investigator school held at Lackland Air Force Base in Texas.  I would love to say I am excited, as I have never really been to that part of the country, but I think I'm more nervous than anything.  A little out of my comfort zone and away from everything and everyone I know and care about.  It seems since day one of enlisting into the military it has gone this way for me, carrying me on the winds of uncertainty, a journey unknown.  I have to continually remind myself that there is a plan for me, and although I may not completely know what it is, I am certain there is definitely a plan for me, and for that I couldn't be more thankful.  In time, I am hoping the plan may eventually be revealed to me.  Until then, I will appreciate that what I have and those circumstances I have been put into that may mold me into the person I am meant to be.....and send me in the direction that I am meant to go.